for Marina Ruiz Rodríguez
1
I hide my sanity in a clay vase.
when I snore
only its broken rhythm remains.
2
as a child, I repeated the same dream: 20
centimeters from my face sharp little men
came alive, a single-line drawing.
I always wanted to touch them with my fingertips
but the edge of their body was a knife and I bled.
3
there is a house I always return to, several houses.
one is white and in ruins. to get
to the other one, you must go down the whole mountain.
sometimes, awake, I remember them and want
to go, but they don’t exist.
4
the dream is a suspension bridge a drawbridge
an old bridge a bridge made of metal
over a river. I cross the dream river and then
my mouth rips off the bridge with my teeth. the bridge
screams.
5
the dream gets interrupted because I’m thirsty.
I go to the kitchen for a glass of water.
inside there are colorful fish
fireworks
carnivorous flowers.
I drink.
6
now the dream is a garden I tend
painstakingly.
I plant a seed
then another and another and another.
I wait endlessly.
I am sowing dead kisses.
7
the immensity is empty. bright fish, red
and yellow, glide merrily through. it starts
to snow and I am alone and naked but
not afraid. hundreds of worms sketch
prophetic grooves beneath my feet, absolute
symbols. I get close to see. I imitate the contours
with my index finger. with my voice I give life
to those words. the origin of all names is
the origin. each phenome has its edge. bloody
scream in our contact. I make love, my body
grows. I push my hand in and fish. now I am
a rebellious horseman on the back of a dancing fish.
I recognize the feel of my first intoxication.
I spin and spin and spin. the world’s asleep.
8
I twist the mirror’s knob and open
inside there is a mirror with a knob
I twist the mirror’s knob and open
inside there is a mirror with a knob
I twist the mirror’s knob and open
inside there is a mirror with a knob…
9
I open my eyes. I am surrounded by clay jars and scales.
my body is tired. my whole
room under water. I feel as though I’ve dreamed
something terrible, but I don’t remember
what.